Today I feel contentment

I feel that I should have gone out with some folks on Sat night to Elements Lounge. Oh well like I said, I wasn't feel up for being ultra social. It takes energy to be a cool guy.

Today I woke up, tried to get the doctor to go watch NFL with me over breakfast, but she was sleeping. Instead I cleaned house a bit, went to play tennis w/ this guy who runs the ladder. He's older, so I kicked his ass. Then jetted to Fremont to play Tombo who I lost to again (jesus christ, this is killing me, but also motivating me) 6-2, 6-4. Then off to Godd and Genn's wedding reception. Apparnetly we under estimated the event and my gift I feel was not enough. Kind of bad, I hate to be insulting like that. Maybe I will send them another gift as well.

Anyways I feel truly content today for the first time in a while. I have dates lined up, life is going forward okay. I still feel for my ex, but I also realize that things weren't perfect in either direction, and its a good life to get another chance to live and enjoy what you got. If things ever get patched up between us, it will be much better, and if they don't then things will be better in another way.

So.. tonight I feel some contentment.

I am going out with the doc tomorrow, and then another girl on Tues. In the past I was dating alot, but felt a bit like it was forced. Nowadays I don't give a s**t so I just go on dates for the heck of it. No pressure, just have fun. THats the key baby.