Risk Management
I enjoy talking to Boo sometimes because we took such different paths in life and his perspectives are often very contrary to mine.
Boo took the path of enjoying life. Truly living life as much as he can despite the financial and career implications it has had on him. While I was saving money and working to figure out how to make more $$$, he was off to living in SF, Ireland, New York, etc having fun and trying to live it up.
Fast forward like 7 years and where are we.. we are probably equally happy/unhappy and content/ discontent with life and the big difference is that I have alot more $$ saved while he has done alot more in his life to date. But fast forward another 7 years, and will it be me who is thinking that in a flash my life is half over at 40, and that I missed something?
At a blink of an eye.. I'll be 40. Thats my latest saying. Thats how I feel. I know it. For many like Tombo, its a reality. After he has a baby, next thing you know, he's going to be old, 40, having just raised a child and set him/her going in 1st grade. I think about when I met my ex-GF and started dating here, and now in the blink of an eye its 5 years later, I'm 33 and single again. What the hell happened?
Anyways, its an interesting issue we have. Or I have anyways. I suppose part of the goal of youth is to try to live it fully in that phase because the next phases can be a drag. People go thru mid-life crises because of this sometimes.. because they find themselves, in the blink of an eye, at age 40, living the daily grind to pay the mortgage and there is no variation left in their foreseable future. My coworker says it, no action, no excitement anymore.
For me, I feel like that dull basic life was what I wanted and in many ways still want. Its probably some of what broke my ex & I up in the end. I want stability with someone and to start a life together with someone. But at the same time, I can only tell you my thoughts now, for in 7 years I don't know if I'll be thinking I'm trapped in a dead-end hellhole of life that I've created for myself.
So that brings me to an interesting thought thats been looming in my mind more clearly. I should move to Tokyo or Hong Kong, and do it soon. Why? Alot of things tell me not to do it. But the idea that when I'm 40, and truly needing to settle down, it will be way too late to do anything as bold as this (at least not in the same way a single man in his 30's can do it).
Again, I don't know if its really me to do it. I feel like its more me to just settle down here in the bay and find a stable life here. But its so true that you have to try to get the most out of life that you can.
BTW, I saw that movie, Pursuit of Happiness with William Smith. It was an okay movie. I rate it 2.5stars. It is inspiring, but only to some degree. Its more about watching a guy struggle thru tough times and make it. Its no Rudy nor Gattaca in terms of truly inspiring movies. In fact, maybe Rocky Balboa will be more inspiring.
Boo took the path of enjoying life. Truly living life as much as he can despite the financial and career implications it has had on him. While I was saving money and working to figure out how to make more $$$, he was off to living in SF, Ireland, New York, etc having fun and trying to live it up.
Fast forward like 7 years and where are we.. we are probably equally happy/unhappy and content/ discontent with life and the big difference is that I have alot more $$ saved while he has done alot more in his life to date. But fast forward another 7 years, and will it be me who is thinking that in a flash my life is half over at 40, and that I missed something?
At a blink of an eye.. I'll be 40. Thats my latest saying. Thats how I feel. I know it. For many like Tombo, its a reality. After he has a baby, next thing you know, he's going to be old, 40, having just raised a child and set him/her going in 1st grade. I think about when I met my ex-GF and started dating here, and now in the blink of an eye its 5 years later, I'm 33 and single again. What the hell happened?
Anyways, its an interesting issue we have. Or I have anyways. I suppose part of the goal of youth is to try to live it fully in that phase because the next phases can be a drag. People go thru mid-life crises because of this sometimes.. because they find themselves, in the blink of an eye, at age 40, living the daily grind to pay the mortgage and there is no variation left in their foreseable future. My coworker says it, no action, no excitement anymore.
For me, I feel like that dull basic life was what I wanted and in many ways still want. Its probably some of what broke my ex & I up in the end. I want stability with someone and to start a life together with someone. But at the same time, I can only tell you my thoughts now, for in 7 years I don't know if I'll be thinking I'm trapped in a dead-end hellhole of life that I've created for myself.
So that brings me to an interesting thought thats been looming in my mind more clearly. I should move to Tokyo or Hong Kong, and do it soon. Why? Alot of things tell me not to do it. But the idea that when I'm 40, and truly needing to settle down, it will be way too late to do anything as bold as this (at least not in the same way a single man in his 30's can do it).
Again, I don't know if its really me to do it. I feel like its more me to just settle down here in the bay and find a stable life here. But its so true that you have to try to get the most out of life that you can.
BTW, I saw that movie, Pursuit of Happiness with William Smith. It was an okay movie. I rate it 2.5stars. It is inspiring, but only to some degree. Its more about watching a guy struggle thru tough times and make it. Its no Rudy nor Gattaca in terms of truly inspiring movies. In fact, maybe Rocky Balboa will be more inspiring.
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