Feelings.....

are that life kinda sucks. all i can do is just keep going forward man.

can't let things get you down at times. i don't think its because of valentines day or anything. i think its just the overwhelming fact of life that the grass is always greener, and that you never really have what you think you want, or not when you think you need it.

i had a few glasses of wine tonight, so i'm on a rambling fit.

anyways, i know life isn't bad. life is okay. life is good. i live in the 99-percentile of living standards in the world, probably 93% in the US, etc. not much to complain about right now. but still.. we are human so we want more and more.

i can't say its a woman i need. maybe.. who knows. i've been looking for something for years and years. once i used to say that i was looking for something that doesn't exist. i am not sure about that, but still i feel i need to find some focus soon.

maybe i can just play wc3.