Being sick.. meaning.. optimization.. life

Well I don't know whats in the future but one things for sure I guess I need a change.

I have given this SF life about 9 months since my big breakup, and while its been fun, I think it will be more fun and meaningful elsewhere. When I think back to my purpose in life back then, in my old life, I don't know what it was. It was more to save money and buy property. Was that living life? Not really. But it was a purpose.

In my current life.. I guess my purpose should be to find a hot new girlfriend. But alas, haven't found one that is hot, nice, and worth my waking up in the morning to call. Yeah life is tough. I pretty much zoned out of finding a girl because I was doing fine just chilling on my own.

Anyways I need to get my ass in gear. I'm not getting jack shit done in life right now. Been watching lot of CSI though.